Hello from the other side

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That title can be taken in so many ways.. but this is how I’m feeling it today. I’m using a few music references in this blog today, so why now title one up that way!?

Other than feeling somewhat melodramatic with the hay fever today, something I don’t normally suffer with but am doing a lot today, I wondered how many of you reading this have been through a transition so big in yourself you have completely changed as a person?

That Earth Shattering change that’s left you confused, lost, maybe even depressed not knowing what to do with yourself. Reminds me of a song by The Staves called ‘No me, No you, No more’ where they talk about loss of a relationship but I see that as a loss within ourselves.. our old selves.

How can I want you A little bit more than I did before? I don't need you, but I want you back A little bit more, than I knew Now I can't go back to life before Before I knew That you didn't love me no more You didn't need me no more You didn't love me no more You didn't want me at all

How can you tell me, that you don't love me like you did before? 'Cause you want me I can tell by the way that you hold the door You don't need me So I sit myself back on the floor And I wait there, 'cause I can't go out no more 'Cause you dont need me no more You don't love me no more You don't want me at all

And I'm tethered to you now Climbing back on again Weaker now somehow Let me be myself again 'Cause I'm tethered to you now (Woah)

How can you tell me, that you don't love me like you did before? No Me, No You, No More No Me, No You, No More No Me, No You, No More - The Staves

Beautiful isn’t it?.. such simple lyrics and so powerful and it’s been a theme tune for many behind their lives so far I know it has done for me. But if you’ve felt lost recently because there’s nothing like the present times to make some major shifts within everyone and everything on this planet.. an ascention of sorts. But if you are still in that period of feeling quite confused because you’ve changed but your logical mind hasn’t quite parred up with it yet.. then always listen to your heart.. the hook from another famous tune by Roxette.

Im not gonna lie this last year has been transformational more so within me as a person, outside-in for me. Felt like the entire world and myself was a completely different source of stability and it’s been disconcerting finding my feet again on the ground. But the one thing that’s kept me going and has always remained true has been my emotions.

That old familiar feeling of happiness and love, desire, joy, sadness.. I took great comfort in the fact that they had not changed. Sure what caused them to be evoked has been a great wonder as that’s been different.. more enhanced at times. But your heart is something that you can always go back to, no matter what you go through in life or how much you change, always have that you can rely on.

Sure, it’s not tangible but since when could we ever count on the tangible really for every moment of our day? Homes crumble, people have their own issues to resolve in life, cars are sold off, organisations change.. we see retailers and businesses have had to move online recently and where so many businesses have gone under, sadly, a reflection of the current times. The universe and your feelings, your spirit, are always there for you no matter what happens.. and it’s given me so much peace in my rockiest of times but I’ve had to figure it out after wading through a fair amount of confusion myself.

If you are feeling confused, like things are changing or you have changed so much you are at a loss and things are a bit up in the air, gently remind yourself of this..

You‘re ok. Settle your anxious heart and be calm. Listen to how you feel when you are sitting outside in the sunshine. Fragrances in the air from wherever you find yourself. A great sense of peace washes over you in the knowledge that how you feel is 100% authentically you. You can rely on this beautiful and personal part of you always.

But mostly , know that you’re ok, don’t worry things will get clearer in time and you will find your mojo again and be on full pelt! The stars are always aligning for you just hang in there. Having been through this before and still coming out of it now, it’s been a crazy journey but it would be when 90% of who I was is now lost.. but embracing all the new, shopping for new clothes or adapting to my new view of the world, people, friends, my outlook on life.. has been quite a journey. When I look back now I see how far I’ve come already and know that the rest will become clear in time but with all the changes physically & mentally afoot.. I cherish my emotions, even on a bad day, because they feel like the most familiar living old guide and I am so grateful this remains with me, true, like my most faithful unwavering friend.

Love & Light☀️